Mickey Totten


I went to the hospital Sept 3rd 2019 with some chest and shoulder pain. I remember them wanting to do a test for meningitis. That’s the last thing I remember!

As I later found out I had walking pneumonia. (Sepsis and Pneumonia) I was intubated but aspirated “food in my lung” and they think that’s where the sepsis started but I still don’t really know. At least that’s what I was told.

I woke up in the ICU 17 days later with my leg swollen and red, as well as my hand, twice the normal size from 6 blown IVs in five days. I had a full beard had no idea where I was or how I got there. Aside from some horrific hallucinations and nightmares I remember nothing but pain. I had tubes coming out of all over. (Sepsis and Hallucinations)

Thankfully my wife and daughter and son were at my bedside to calm me down and let me know what had happened. My wife told me I was in the hospital in ICU and almost died twice and I had been very sick and combative, and was punching and even kicked a male nurse in the head  I was shocked. All I could remember was that I was being held someplace against my will due to the hallucinations and nightmares.

It’s almost 2 years later and I still struggle horribly with my thinking and just trying to get through the day. Before the hospital I was a crane operator, helicopter pilot, and negotiated large labor contracts with the Operating Engineers Union. Now I have trouble filling out forms in the doctor’s office. Ya, I guess I survived sepsis and when I got home from the hospital I couldn’t walk talk or write, so a lot has improved but I’m far far from where I was before this Hell they call sepsis. I suffer from PTSD, heart issues, lung problems and have started testing for encephalopathy. (Sepsis and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) But don’t get me wrong. I’m grateful I lived and I’m so so grateful for my family. But what a life changing illness. I had no clue.

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