Meghan Crocker
I am writing to you because I lost my sweet Meghan to sepsis on February 23, 2010. I am living in hell with all of the “should have” or “could haves.” She was 13 years old, to be 14 on May 14th.
She had such a bright future and now it is all gone. Meghan was in a car accident, brought to the hospital and examined. She had a lacerated spleen and they suggested I take her to Children’s Hospital in Boston for observation. NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!
So we took her there by ambulance. We got there at about 4:30 in the morning on Sunday. When we got there, the doctors took a look at the scan and found Meghan also had a lacerated kidney. I held her hand and knew she had a fever, I always could tell with her hand. I told them to check it for me and they found she did have a fever.
They started testing her blood and kept giving her morphine. She did not normally even take Tylenol. By Sunday afternoon I noticed she was having very little urine output and she had an IV. Her urine was also very brown. Later that day, she started to have blood in her urine.
Every time I asked a question they told me it was normal. I was told there was nothing to worry about. So after not sleeping for two days, I slept on the floor next to my baby. I told the nurse to wake me if there was any change in Meghan’s blood work.
I woke up to the nurses telling me Meghan was having a hard time breathing. I asked the nurse how her blood was she actually told me “funny different.” WOW- it floored me.
I went to talk to Meghan and asked what was wrong she told me she could not see me, I told her I loved her and she said, “I love you too.” And she passed right before my eyes.
They called a code blue and it took the doctors and nurses a long time to get her back. She died two more times in the ICU. Finally they took her to surgery and found her bowels were shredded and it would be a good 24-hour waiting period now. Meghan kept going into cardiac arrest and shortly after midnight her heart could not take it. They stopped trying. Her little chest was so black and blue from all the CPR. I WAS SO TIRED AND DEVASTATED. I kept asking why they did not to laparoscopy on her and I got no answer.
This is our story and I would love to do something in her memory. Please let me know. Thank you.
Source: by Rita Crocker, Meghan's mother
